How my mind works...

I opened up the computer for the first time in a few days... to write a post and do some work and get caught up. And then I got distracted with Spotify. I made a playlist. And my emotions ran wild as I listened to fragments from favorite songs by Ingrid Michaelson, James Taylor, Jack Johnson and Mike Doughty. The songs are always the same, the emotions the same. They unleash parts of me that I forget exist. I wonder why I don't play music during the day more often. The kids love it. I love it. I just don't think of it. I don't think of a lot... my brain can only hold so much these days, and so much seems to get overlooked. I'm categorizing again. I read the Bible and I wonder how I can live without thinking of Jesus every two seconds, because I know He's here. And there. But my brain... oh how little it seems to handle...And then I wonder if I'm doing this whole loving God thing right, and I know that's just silly and there's no right or wrong way. The categorizing thing is getting to me again. I wrote about it nearly years ago it seems, how I box myself into a corner. I'm a knitter. So I knit. Then the next day I say I'm a writer, and I write. And now I'm a homeschooler, so I homeschool. And I think if I do one thing I can't be good at anything else. But that's just wrong. I do it all. Even under the confines of the categories and the boxes. I'm ready to knock them out, kick down the tower of categories that overshadow the joys and successes. I read Brook's post about getting back to a schedule, and man did that resonate. I feel like right now I'm wallowing in a puddle of waiting for fall and school to start, and tomorrow I'll do it, and I can't really work on the schedule until next week when Lucas is home and then I'll have time, and now I'll just wait and.. and... and... 

...and that's how my brain works... mostly when it's in dire need of some structure and daily rhythms... :)